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Thursday, January 26, 2006

Good Grief - I've Created a Monster!

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It started with a few email exchanges left over from my days. He lives outside of Annapolis and plays violin for the Annapolis Symphony; a retired music education teacher. His emails were witty and intelligent and I was drawn to his love for music.

He was anxious to meet and insisted on talking on the phone. I offered my cell number and he called the following night. What followed was 1 and 1/2 hours of hearing about his failed marriage; why he was forced to retire from teaching; listening to selections of music which were hard to appreciate over a cell phone. Ok - he seemed a bit over the top as far as trying too hard to make an impression. A few off color remarks were uttered but I let them slide although I was surprised to hear them on a first conversation. He began a barrage of emails and calls to me while at work the next day. That night I mentioned that I really cannot take personal calls during work hours but I take me lunch from 12-1 and am sometimes in the office during this time. I also cautioned him that (1) I go to bed early and would prefer not receiving phone calls after 9 pm (2) my mother was spending the weekend with me and I would prefer not receiving ANY calls while she is here.

Four times he called over the weekend with a continued stream of emails. Luckily I have Caller ID and did not pick up. The evening calls - after 10 pm continued. The first few days this week my work phone began ringing at 11:55 and continued through the lunch hour - now he simply calls any time of the work day. The last three days I have averaged 5 office calls with messages, 2 cell phone, 2 home phone calls and 4-5 email messages.

I WANT THIS MAN OUT OF MY LIFE! Is he CRAZY?? Who has time for all this?

My daughter suggested I let him off easy by blaming myself for not being enterily able to meet his committment needs. (Yikes!) So that is exactly what I said to an email tonight. As I hear my phone ring in the background (as he must be on break at Orchestra practice) I think of the email waiting for him.

Press here!

--The Leading Lady-- | 8:45 PM | 21 comments

Monday, January 09, 2006

Christmas Thoughts & Photos!

Here is a cute one of my condo all decorated for Christmas!

A couple of neat presents!

I won my very first (in my life!) door prize at our office Christmas party - $100 gift card to Nordstorm! So I bought some insurance against any snow storms happening in 2006! Comfy snug 'toe warmers'.

Now here is the fun gift!! Ever since I moved from Maryland and sold my trusty piano I have been without any musical assistance with my Singers' repertoire. Lots to learn to understand: how I can include percussion, different orchestra instrument sounds, timing and I don't even know what else!! Yes, you see a 'WICKED' song book as I'm trying to learn some of these pieces. Going to the Kennedy Center production this week and can't wait to be immersed in the wonderful sound and performance!

What Christmas would be complete without a little sibbling rivilry!

This is the top of my Christmas tree before my Christmas Eve dinner - one lone little angel announcing the festivities!

Sometime during the laughter, eating and reminiscing, MommaK's kindergarden star with her picture attached, somehow crawled up the tree from it's designated station to take out the angel.

Her two sibblings are correctly positioned below her in what might be considered 'pecking order'.

As I was cleaning up after the party I noticed that the MIDDLE child could not allow this to happen and most likely took out her sister as she was walking out the door.....behind her. HA!

The youngest, being the baby, is quite secure in her position - I would assume!

Now, I must brag on myself because I just took on a project that scared me to death! I bought a 2 drawer UNASSEMBLED file cabinet. Now just how hard could it be - for someone who has virtually no mechanical sense. As the song goes "I know what I was feeling but what was I thinking?" I was feeling like "WOMAN" - liberated female who can attack any job, large or small, (as long as there isn't a lot of muscle required!). How hard could it be???

The box was frickin heavy - I had the store load it in my car and I used my trusty grocery cart to lug it up to my apartment where I deposited it on the living room floor.

I was not going to panic at the 10 page detailed instructions nor the 100+ pieces involved. Logic told me to first:

1) sort out all the pieces by type

2) confirm from the instructions that I had everything that was listed.

Then I began to go to page at a time. And it started making sense and was actually way COOL. I always wondered how carpenters attached two pieces of wood without leaving a trace! I learned about how a CAM can be inserted and locked into place. I was just amazed with each step of the process. The instructions could not have been clearer - pictures are 1 million words! I would have finished it last night but it involved hammering certain pieces in place and the hour was 9:00 pm - must be considerate of my neighbors. I waited until 9:30 this morning and proceeded with the rest of my work - unfortunately receiving shouts from either upstairs or downstairs to stop the noise (go figure!). Inappropriate so I continued on - luckily no pounding at my door. So here is the product of my work:

Now, I do humbly recognize my limitations and will not mess with larger projects and certainly anything to do with electricity. I have been hunting for just the right chandalier or light fixture for my dining alcove (not actually a room). I found it this weekend on Smart Bargains and have asked my magnificently talented SIL to install for me!

I just LOVE Tiffany anything! What do you think?

Retail Value: $359.00
Our Price: $109.99
You Save 69% (Wha-hoo!)

--The Leading Lady-- | 11:43 AM | 12 comments

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New Year's Thoughts

Should I dare look back first over the past year to see what 2005 resolutions were met?

At the beginning of 2005 I had already made the sound but difficult decision to end my marriage but was still sharing a house - if living on separate floors constitutes living together. I had just been handed the green light, the shocker of all 'ego out of control' decisions. For fear of being part of a disastrous screw-up on the sale of our house, my husband preferred to give up all interest in a simple concise note: "You can have your money and your house and I'll keep my money and the land at the beach". It was too good to be true - but yet it was true and matured into a signed and notarized Separation Agreement.

The next few months were a whirlwind of downsizing, packing, selling and giving away until I could squeeze 30 years of living in a large house into a small 2 bedroom condo. Yes, we did it girls!! Not without the help of my daughters!!

The settlements and move were stressful but uneventfully smooth. Summer followed with decorating and 'comfortizing' my new home.

I am extremely receptive to the fact that I don't have any major events, tasks or decisions to make in 2006 - at least that I know of as yet. Although it is possible that a new job opportunity may come my way - I'm in the 'courting' stage right now and enjoying the celebrity status. If something comes from it I'll consider using it as a leverage in my current job (maybe).

So I can think about some 2006 refinements............

1) Always on the top of my list is getting in shape. I've joined Curves and have promised myself to show up 3 times a week. It's easy and quick and convenient.

2) Focus on healthy: (1) get that damn mamogram (2) visit my doctor/dentist - due for a checkup

3) Give my aging mother more attention - call her more often - increase the visits and invites over. If she goes to the beach this summer - plan on being there every other weekend to do her shopping. She's failing noticably and I'm wondering if this might be her last year with us. She fears it herself and she's fighting to be able to make it to her granddaughter's wedding.

4) One of my 2005 resolutions was to find a good Church and I feel quite happy with the Church at which I sing each Sunday. I am not immersed - there is a comfortable distance which I like. I want to take from the service what I feel I can relate to without signing the dotted line of total doctrinal commitment. I'd like 2006 to be a year of inward reflection to learn meditation which will both de-stress me as well as keep me in focus of who I want to be.

5) I'm struggling with this one but I think it's important to bring up. I want to try and be a positive force in our family dynamics - I think we are all feeling a little tired of the negative exchanges that occurs on a regular basis. I know I can't change the personalities involved nor can I whitewash hurtful comments or omissions. But I need to practice .....simple 'charity'. In some cases, that might mean I resort to silence. Still an improvement. Our family isn't perfect - there are few out there that are! But we have been blessed with a goodly number of normal, loving members - I grateful for this gift!

6) Last year with my music I dared to dance and even MC a show. This year I would like to work on my keyboard skills. Maybe by this summer I can give the family a demonstration!!

7) I think this will be a year of learning about myself - I'm not going to actively seek out the man of my dreams. I'm trusting he'll find me!

8) As in every year for the past 32 years, I resolve to be a good mother to my wonderful daughters. Each year brings opportunities for me to give back to them the joy they have given me. May it continue for another 32 years!

--The Leading Lady-- | 9:06 PM | 10 comments

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy New Year!!

The very best of 12 new months to my family and friends!!

Irish toast
In the New Year, may your right hand always be stretched out in friendship, never in want.

Movie: "When Harry Met Sally", Harry Burns
And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Sydney Smith
Resolve to make at least one person happy every day, and then in ten years you may have made three thousand, six hundred and fifty persons happy, or brightened a small town by your contribution to the fund of general enjoyment.

Your Merry Christmas may depend on what others do for you. But your Happy New Year depends on what you do for others.

Aisha Elderwyn
Every new year people make resolutions to change aspects of themselves they believe are negative. A majority of people revert back to how they were before and feel like failures. This year I challenge you to a new resolution. I challenge you to just be yourself.

F. M. Knowles, A Cheerful Year Book
He who breaks a resolution is a weakling; He who makes one is a fool.

G. K. Chesterton
The object of a new year is not that we should have a new year. It is that we should have a new soul.

T. S. Eliot
For last year's words belong to last year's language and next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning.

Benjamin Franklin
Be always at war with your vices, at peace with your neighbors, and let each New Year find you a better man.

Edgar A. Guest
A happy New Year!
Grant that I May bring no tear to any eye
When this New Year in time shall end
Let it be said I've played the friend,
Have lived and loved and labored here,
And made of it a happy year.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox
What can be said in New Year rhymes,
That's not been said a thousand times?
The new years come, the old years go,
We know we dream, we dream we know.
We rise up laughing with the light,
We lie down weeping with the night.
We hug the world until it stings,
We curse it then and sigh for wings.
We live, we love, we woo, we wed,
We wreathe our prides, we sheet our dead.
We laugh, we weep, we hope, we fear,
And that's the burden of a year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the great times together, Dick. I cried for you last night!

--The Leading Lady-- | 5:12 PM | 3 comments